more then words to show me how you feel;

my life's messed up. hmm. i mean some are good and stuff. really glad i've kinda started studying and getting back on track. but i really HATE the fact that i'm being suffocated here. i feel as though i'm in a cage la my god. hurhur. reminds me of lionel! is that how it's supposed to be spelt anywayy? anyway. BIRDIE! wahaha. shall ask him how come he's called that. :)

anyway i digress. :( BOO. friday was slack. kinda fun just playing games and after that sitting around chatting. rubbish basically. :P RAH. okay i'm pissed with my ____ for NOT allowing me to take part in the tournament! like wtf. the prize money is $200. HMMM. wanted to get it OK. and the next thing the person said really made me wanna slap her. seriously. "$200 only what, only enough to buy 2 tops or 4 belts." FUCK!!! like since you don't wanna give me money i need to find a way to get it right? i think $200 is uh.. good enough for me. FOR THE TIME BEING. yeah maybe i should jst steal or rob a bank or something. hurhur. it's not like you care anywayy. maybe you do. but i think it's me who doesn't give a shit. okay maybe you'll be reading this whole thing later on but i don't care. okay i'm in a BAD BAD DOWNRIGHT BAD mood. hmmm. :(

on a lighter note, i can't wait for this week to be over. so i can go out again. and go for tuition! hurhur. TUITION. i lovee it now. i'm so sad i've gotta change my math tuition teacher! i hope i've impacted her life in a way. HAHAHHA. yeah right. by inturrupting her class and making her laugh every monday night. :) i love amath. but differentiation sucks. tangents and normal. easy if you know how. but damn confusing. x( maybe i'm just dumb. hahahaha. but i improve k! and i'm really grateful to her for that. :) maybe i should stick i picture of her at the back of my calculator. HA HA HA. i'm sure i'll be able to answer every single question. sighh. shall make it a point to pop by her class next year! :D let's see. chem tuition. she is like an ALL-IN-ONE tutor. seriously no kidding. wahahaha. bet she was a straight As student last time. lalala. chem to bio to physics to geography to lit??!! bahahaha.

shall study now! :) but i have this really bad headache. BOO!! oh yeah and i must say my left hand has been imprving. wahahha. for squash. anyone wanna challenge me? :)

GOODNIGHT.